So my spiritual sister in Christ dropped some heavy wisdom on me today! My GOD! In my family life, everything seems like it's going through the growing pains and transitions and some days hurt worse than others. We came to a conference here in Houston for the first family's and we all grabbed something different. My fear, yea I admit I had no faith for this one and God got me for that, was that nothing would change. Today Pastor Ireshea said that it migt not seem to change when we leave. And I have alot of desires. See God asked Solomon in the bible what he wanted and he said two things. I would have messed that up and asked for HUNDREDS of things lol. But she said, and I paraphrase, that if we go back and nothing changes, that's fine. Sometimes we expect people to do what only God can. My focus should be on my personal connection with God because my happiness is not tied to someone else, it is tied to God. I have to intercede, pray, and let God take it and then and only then He is held obligated to fix it. Because I love him and my heart is right towards Him.
I love when she said....If my heart is right towards God and my greatest desire is to please Him, then God is held accountable to bring me into the company of the people that are critical to my success.
I really plan on SERIOUSLY seeking God more. Through Prayer and Studying His word. And I'm not saying that because it sounds pretty but because she also said that when I seek God in return He won't lead me with an assumtpion. I have stepped out on my emotions and what I thought, so many times. But anything God wants me do He will make it crystal clear when we seek Him. God is a God of vision and plan. So I'm not going to make another move until I have the wisdom and assurance and then I won't have to wait for a human support to help me if I fall. Because Where God guides He will provide. So like my Pastor says all the time, I'm going to "Pray about everything and worry about nothing" because I have the faith that God's will, will be accomplished in my life. Thanks for reading. U R loved.
-- Post From My iPhone
Friday, February 19, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Sitting in hotel lobby thinking..I discover daily that I'm so different and familiarity slices my wrist. (sorry so graphic) but seriously, I have moments when i consider running away to a desserted island. I do pray that this is just a phase because relationships can be harmed if this continues and I don't see marriage in the future because of this.
So what's running through my head? How should i act as a citizen, morals, beliefs, truths, compositions, lyrics, people, etc. I sometimes wonder is this what everyone else is thinking of also. I'm looking around this lobby and I think not! Everyone is having conversation while I sit here and I care not to join in. Just saying. Maybe I just need to process all my thoughts instead of trying to find a cure. I thought I could cure it if I began to date. I'm not surHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJ
you want to go where 'nobody' knows your name and they could care less that you came....
-- Post From My iPhone
So what's running through my head? How should i act as a citizen, morals, beliefs, truths, compositions, lyrics, people, etc. I sometimes wonder is this what everyone else is thinking of also. I'm looking around this lobby and I think not! Everyone is having conversation while I sit here and I care not to join in. Just saying. Maybe I just need to process all my thoughts instead of trying to find a cure. I thought I could cure it if I began to date. I'm not surHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJ
you want to go where 'nobody' knows your name and they could care less that you came....
-- Post From My iPhone
Friday, February 5, 2010
GRACE LIKE A RIVER
So I was sitting here just thinking that God has ALOT of GRACE!
I know I use alot of it, but I look at others (not trying to judge) but just seeing that they are using alot of Grace too...SMH!
Tonight I wrote three songs for my project. I'm doing a Worship Project on "LOVE". Something that I don't know enough about but I'm learning more each day. I believe if everyone (especially believers) knew the extent that God really loves us all, then we would have more fear, reverence, and honor for the things of God especially His commandments.
Today I made a list of all the things I wanted the Holy Spirit to help me recover from in my life. I wrote that I need more compassion. At my church we are thoroughly taught, and not saying others aren't but you can always tell when some go to a church that is not receiving like you are or maybe they aren't listening because of some of the stuff they say. Here lately, Facebook and Twitter have been like totally grieving my spirit and I have limited my access. I could do more but I have decreased my usage.
One of the things that gets me the most is that we COMPROMISE!! We compromise the truth to fit a lie that we have convinced ourselves to think as truth. WE fail to realize that there is only one TRUTH and we had nothing to do with it and that's JESUS!!
I don't want to go into much detail cause it bothers me to think about some of the things that I read from some of my peers and leaders. And lesson learned you can't judge a book by the cover or the pictures inside. It's better not to judge at all but judge by the words. We all have a certain level of, let's say ummm..assumed behavior.. from those who are leading us and those who have authority. So I can leave it at that. We really need to make sure that we don't COMPROMISE! I asked God to give me His heart so that I can Have compassion But Compassion doesn't mean compromise. God never compromised. He's original. He didn't have to take somebody else bird and make it better. No HE made the bird period. But for some reason we feel it necessary to use our energy and creativity to try to remix something already formed with one intention to make it ...I guess good. Not saying the motives aren't good but hey why do we need a CHRISTIAN PEPPERMINT! There are already regular peppermints let's come up with something of our own! We have the Holy Spirit to guide us! WE CAN DO IT! We don't have to waste our energies to remixing nothing when God gives wisdom liberally to be original! God is original so should we be!
I'm just saying this is my conviction maybe it isn't others. That's why I'm praying for compassion so I can live with my conviction and be able to accept others.. I guess.. As you can see I'm still evolving and growing. This is just something that has been bugging me but it goes to show that we are in need of more and more grace. I'm one to admit. Just think if God gave up on us the minute we messed up! OOOH I would have been gone a long time ago..
That's all on that. I hope the project I'm working on becomes a blessing and reach many to see the importance of LOVE!. Like my daddy would say what the world needs is LOVE SWEET LOVE
I'm OUT
Peace and Favor
BROJ
I know I use alot of it, but I look at others (not trying to judge) but just seeing that they are using alot of Grace too...SMH!
Tonight I wrote three songs for my project. I'm doing a Worship Project on "LOVE". Something that I don't know enough about but I'm learning more each day. I believe if everyone (especially believers) knew the extent that God really loves us all, then we would have more fear, reverence, and honor for the things of God especially His commandments.
Today I made a list of all the things I wanted the Holy Spirit to help me recover from in my life. I wrote that I need more compassion. At my church we are thoroughly taught, and not saying others aren't but you can always tell when some go to a church that is not receiving like you are or maybe they aren't listening because of some of the stuff they say. Here lately, Facebook and Twitter have been like totally grieving my spirit and I have limited my access. I could do more but I have decreased my usage.
One of the things that gets me the most is that we COMPROMISE!! We compromise the truth to fit a lie that we have convinced ourselves to think as truth. WE fail to realize that there is only one TRUTH and we had nothing to do with it and that's JESUS!!
I don't want to go into much detail cause it bothers me to think about some of the things that I read from some of my peers and leaders. And lesson learned you can't judge a book by the cover or the pictures inside. It's better not to judge at all but judge by the words. We all have a certain level of, let's say ummm..assumed behavior.. from those who are leading us and those who have authority. So I can leave it at that. We really need to make sure that we don't COMPROMISE! I asked God to give me His heart so that I can Have compassion But Compassion doesn't mean compromise. God never compromised. He's original. He didn't have to take somebody else bird and make it better. No HE made the bird period. But for some reason we feel it necessary to use our energy and creativity to try to remix something already formed with one intention to make it ...I guess good. Not saying the motives aren't good but hey why do we need a CHRISTIAN PEPPERMINT! There are already regular peppermints let's come up with something of our own! We have the Holy Spirit to guide us! WE CAN DO IT! We don't have to waste our energies to remixing nothing when God gives wisdom liberally to be original! God is original so should we be!
I'm just saying this is my conviction maybe it isn't others. That's why I'm praying for compassion so I can live with my conviction and be able to accept others.. I guess.. As you can see I'm still evolving and growing. This is just something that has been bugging me but it goes to show that we are in need of more and more grace. I'm one to admit. Just think if God gave up on us the minute we messed up! OOOH I would have been gone a long time ago..
That's all on that. I hope the project I'm working on becomes a blessing and reach many to see the importance of LOVE!. Like my daddy would say what the world needs is LOVE SWEET LOVE
I'm OUT
Peace and Favor
BROJ
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
