Oh so you Funny?

So people give me more and more reason to want to leave Shreveport. I'm out of town, here at a LIVE CD recording. Came with my bro! my New MD. Anyways, got here and check into our rooms and one of the "SHREVEPORT PEOPLE" made a little comment that he thought was so funny......but got no laugh. My bro just made a statement saying... YA'll GONNA HEAR FROM THIS GUY REALLY SOON (referring to me) WE'RE WORKING ON SOME STUFF WHEN WE GET BACK TO SHREVEPORT.

So the guy says OH YEA.. WHAT DO YOU DO? REGGAE....Referring to my dreds.....*crickets*

He laughed so he got one point from himself. Anyway.. I know that the UNDERDOG ALWAYS WIN!! THE WHOLE CITY WILL SEE. TRUST THEY DON'T HAVE TO embrace what God has ordained. They didn't embrace Jesus. (not comparing myself to my Lord) but even in Jesus' death God was glorified. SO they can ROAST me or say slick stuff BUT GOD'S WILL WILL COME TO PAST...

And for the record. I see now why God made me a semi quiet person around people  I don't know personally..

What they don't know is that I sit back and listen to God while they are doing there thing then God tells me to listen to them and then when It's my turn I know what and what not to do.............THANKS for the FREE CLASSES PEEPS>

But one thing I'm learning is that I know more than most of these other local artists. THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT.


I'm through now.. anyway I'm so excited to see PJ MORTON and EARNEST PUGH>..BYE

THE ROAD TO A NEW ME.............

So today is OCT. 3... tomorrow marks the day that I transform my outer appearance. I have already began reforming my spiritual or internal factor for some time now. But the outer is going to take just as much work. I'm aiming to lose 30 pounds and tone my chest, arms and stomach.. I super excited. I'm also going to consult an orthodontist about Invisilign Braces! So A new body and a new smile......I hope I don't become a distraction to the glory of God when I lead worship!! lOL #carnal . Anyways. The reason I'm doing it is definitely FOR ME.. My integrity, my health, and taking care of my temple that God gave me. I noticed I was out of shape and overweight when I couldn't fit my clothes and when I would be totally out of breath (overworking my heart) after the first two worship songs. SO I decided to do something about it..

Well I'm about to have my last sweets for a while. I'm going to eat  snickers and drink some fruit juice. Nothing but fruits and vegetables from here on in.......I'm going to take pictures everyday to catch my progress and possibly post VLOGS! I'm excited! I LOVE ME!! GOD LOVES ME!!

Brother J

A Young Buck

Just finished reading a few pages in Monica Coates book and it confirmed what God told me earlier today. If I would ask the world I'm pretty sure they would say I'm in a state of depression. I went to class today, went to lunch, then went to my friend's Dad's studio and wrote a song and then came home to work on another song but I sat on the couch for a bout 5 hours in the dark. The only light coming from my laptop. Depressed much. 
She epxlained as well as God told me yesterday and today that WE are writing my story. Not that he hasn't already planned my life. He's helping me put it in a form to share with others in the sake of my ministry. Monica said God is building my character because I will need it in the MONSTROUS industry I'm going into.

Amongst all that tonight I believe God has given me a Target audience and a sound for now. It may change but I can strongly agree with him on this one. My target audience is 20-30 something. Like me, Looking for love, to be loved, trying to establish life, pursue goals, seeking direction, want to know God but don't know where to look , trying to survive and start a legacy, searching for purpose. So far I've had a taste of all of these and know I will have to experience more challenges but THIS will be my target to help those people. I knew I wasn't meant for children or teens per say but I know this age quite good.
 My sound is FULL MOON (brandy-creativity-rodney 'darkchild' jerkins) Meets Israel and Newbreed and Lakewood Worship meet Britt Nicoles Target Message. So it's like a pop worship. Can't wait to see what category the industry will try to place me in. But God is building me so they can say what they want. I know what He said and I Know who I am. 
Tomorrow I'm going to pursue and out of state opportunity in the industry. It's time for me to grow up ,spread my wings, step out of the boat and walk on water. I read something today that said stop trying to mature and just grow! They say the early 20's ,I'm 22, are the most exciting years in life to discover and explore. I'm ready. that is all

A young Buck

BREAKING

Today I realized something. I've had this feeling since I was 13. I'm just not good enough I guess. I'll never be what's expected. I'm easily blamed for having an attitude or what we say at church "A spirit".
Briefly I'm going ot share my dream. I can't dwell on it because I just got through recording a song and I feel better but I must have cried for an hour today. And these aren't just tears they are painful SOBS. I'm sick of it!
Within the last two months I've had 3 dreams, one last night, of me BLOWING up at church and leaving and it wasn't pretty. I can never tell what leads up to it. And I tried to make myself stay in longer last night to see what happens next but I wonder what it all means. I can usually interpret dreams but this one is hard. I mean I know what it means and what I'm feeling but is this God's way of telling me to leave before it blows up and people get hurt. I don't want to complain but I feel like I unwillingly had to sacrifice everything for ministry. Truth be told we've never had a COMPLETE family and I wrestle with the fact is that of God. I have to wrap it up now cause I'm getting back upset. But what consoled me today is in the stillness God told me that we're writing my story. I used to say that I have nothing as far as experience is concerned to tell people. OMG MINISTRY is on it's WAY!
What fears me and I know i have to reverse it to FAITH cause I'm choosing to trust God, is if my dream becomes reality, where do I go from there? I've been working in the church for almost 6 years doing nothing else. Church EVERYDAY.. I'm scared I may not adapt to anything else well. This is the perfect time to play Israel's new song. You Hold my World in you hands from his new Cd Love God, Love People. Good Night

Breaking

High

I'm on a HiGH Right Now.. and I think I'm going to be here a while. At least I hope so..I'm deciding today to choose to be HAPPY. Smile more, Laugh More, Hug more, and talk one on one to people more. I've been unfriendly here lately. I'm vowing to do better and take my time..

I noticed that when Israel Houghton asked us to let go of our offenses before we come home. I actually did it. I used to think being offended made me a bad person but we all get offended at some point it's only bad when we hold on to it. I let it go and it was easier for me to talk to him today. I still have some healing to do. But I'm trusting God. He always makes the broken things beautiful.

The drive home was peaceful and I loooove the new Israel Houghton Cd "Love God, Love People'. It has a Michael Jackson flavor on it. NICE!
It helped me to launch my new movement. I decided to just do it. Not wait on anything becaused I learned when I wait I usually miss God's timing. But thank that he always brings it back around.
In other news. I hope my teacher extends my homework assignment.
Just got home from my parents house. I'm grateful that they listened to my experience about the conference and it had them excited! They may come next year!! Now I'm about to work on my other blog and do some reading and studying before going to bed..
Peace

So...I'm in my hotel room in Houston, TX after spending the last 4 days here for the "DEEPER CONFERENCE" hosted by Israel Houghton and New Breed.
Right now I'm just a little bothered that I accidently turned in my homework and test late in one of my online classes. When I'm doing Kingdom work or traveling I forget alot of things. I guess that mean I lack balance.
They told us to journal our experience so that we would not forget and so that it would stick with us!
I was dealing with alot before coming here. Family issues, Work issues, and church issues.
I'm burnt. Most people, christians, aren't usually burnt by age and I'm only 22 and I've been doing ministry for most of those years. I got so tired until the point I began questioning my FAITH. My relationship with God and if I even had one. But when I tell you that everything I needed was addressed in the conference I'm telling you the truth. I'll save my past issues for a another blog but I want to do a recap of the entire conference and everything I God told me during the conference. So this will be a lengthy Blog...Here goes..
  I don't want anyone's eyes to get tired.

Night 1 Deeper Conference

Grace Church led us in to worship followed by New Breed..oh and this year we had assigned, pre-reserved seating. COOL!
Bishop Tudor Bismark taught on this night and gave us insight on the Tabernacle of Moses and the Ark of the covenant.
The theme for this night was GRATITUDE

He informed us that we are in the 11th Hour which is the Apostolic hour and that the size of churches were about to increase. That was encouraging because I can see in church's everywhere that they aren't filling like they used to. Even our church.

The overall tone of the conference was GIVING (not just money) Loving People and Serving. Every speaker all reminded us of the same thing that we don't have to worry about ourselves. God has our world in His hands. We should be concerned about others who are less fortunate than we are. God gave me a theme for my ministry a few months ago and i must admit that I brushed it to the side. But this conference caused it to resurface and God has given me another chance to pursue and present it. My vision and Ministry theme is SHOW LOVE, SHARE HOPE!.. Isn't that awesome???
Well I think so. See people are looking for Love and Hope.. and Christ met both of those needs for everyone He came in contact with and I want to do the same. Show the LOVE of God, and Share the Hope that I have in it!
There are alot of more details about this but I'm actually about to create a website/blog for my ministry. I'm super excited!
I met some wonderful friends that I really hope lead to more travel and ministering opportunties although I didn't come to the conference for that, during one of the speakers God told me that this is season He is taking me in is a season of New relationship and this will be a test for my discernment and I need a keen discernment when I officially get in to the industry.
Tuesday me and William Demps, Singer from Seattle, WA began our friendship. He's my new mentor. He is so wise and we talked like we knew each other for ever. I'll never forget when I first went to his myspace page God telling me that we'd be friends/brothers. Not sure if this is seasonal but I'm ready for what ever God does. I learned this week that God only want one thing from us and that's TRUST. and I have to admit, that even though I love God and have faith, I still lacked in the trust department being that trust is totally different from love and faith. I have to COMPLETELY trust God with my life. Why wouldn't I think that God knows what He is doing. He's GOD! Sometimes, I know I do, I give God too many human charactersitics. But God is not like us. His thoughts and ways are higher!
So I recommitted my trust in him and I asked Him to be patient with me. So let's see how this works.
I'm so happy to be connected to Israel Houghton. this year (2010) he actually celebrated 20 years of ministry and 10 years of new Breed. Alot of the previous New Breed Member joined him on stage..(where was Stacey Joseph) wait that's messy lol sorry.. anyways. He's now one of my fathers for wise counsil being that God promoted him from just another artist to being a well for artist. He layed hands on all of us and I'm believing God for the song writing, integrity, and ministering, and musical anointing that he has on his life is now on my life. Although we stayed in the conference ALL Day it was well worth it. Some prestigious people were there or sent videos to congratulate him. Dodie Osteen was there and Joyce Myers snet a video. It's amazing to see the lives he touched. You can tell he's humble and sincere because he cried about everything. His daughter (mariah, 13( started her own foundation- Bella's Blankets that Give blankets to the poor)) He was really proud and he has now launched his own foundation POWER OF ONE based on Matthew 25.

My favorite speaker for the conference was Bishop Michael Pitts.. WHOA He preached the house down.. One thing that he said that still disturbs me and probably will until it's fixed is that they determine how to build a prison based on the test scores of inner city 4th grade males who don't have fathers/ That's burning so with in me that My ministry will help to destroy that. also there are more people dying from water disease than we know because they lack clean water.. and he talked about how alot of church's have differenct out reach and ministry but lack prison ministry and it was outlined to have one in Matthew 25. So this week has rekindled my fire musically and ministry wise. and I'm ready to get to work. there's so much running through my mind that I can't get out at one time. So i'll stop and come back later. I have a feeling that this conference, like last year will stick with me and the different experiences that i'm about to face will bring me back to this burning point. I'm trusting God and I WILL hit my TARGET!

Strength is for service and not for status!
God Bless
J

A Time Of Rest..(Last Public Blog Here)

So me and my family have decided to take a vacation and it is true;
you never know how much rest you need until you lay down and I think
we laid down for all of 5 min. There's so much to do here lol.

Although many people have their own views of Las Vegas, most of whom
have never been, Vegas is a great place to vacation. We aren't
gamblers so I figured we'd be bored but the shows, circus, shopping
and food is enough fun for anybody! (saint or sinner) I see a new
revelation of what Jesus said when He said be in the world but not of
it.. There's alot to do in it to the point that you don't have to
allow it to consume you to be of it. I am thoroughly enjoying myself.
We are at a circus show and hopefully we get to go see Lion King the
show later.
I urge everyone to go somewhere and get
rest especially if you are a part of the leadership of a church or
ministry. We work 25/7 lol. So since we Work hard, we play hard!! I
think everyone should adopt that method and you'll find out that there
is more to life than work, negativitiy and disgust. Enjoy what God
have you.. You only get one here. Enjoy abundant life on the way to
eternal life... That's what God would want.

yours truly,

Brother J
Oh Yea I'm about to start a new blog and saved this one as my personal blog ...like my online diary..so this will be your last read of the Evolution of Brother J until it's cracked open years from now. Thanks for being a faithful reader God Bless!

Update From Victor!!

Today I received an update from my sponsored child in Sierra Leone, Africa! I began sponsoring him last year in September and since then I've been praying and sending gifts and it's has definitely been rewarding to my life!

Just a little bit about him.. He's 5 years old and his birthday is in February. He enjoys coloring and his Area Development Manager says that he is very friendly. He's about to go to pre-school and he is in Perfect Health. We all know the disease crisis that is plaguing Africa but through prayer and love Victor is completely healthy. I would like to go see him when he turns 7...so that's about 2 years away..

If you want to know the reason why I even took on this task is because of Amos 5:23-24.
I don't want to just sing worship but I want to live worship and this is what God calls worship: JUSTICE!!

If you're interested in sponsoring a child I'm also a World Vision Volunteer and I have the information you need or go to www.worldvision.org I thank God for Justice Groups like World Vision.. They are getting the job done :) Well thanks for reading. I'm just so happy every time I receive updates from Victor. I'm about to write him a letter and go to the store and pick up some gifts to send... I love that lil' guy ;)

This conference is WHOA!!! OMG! Ok I think I'm going to do a video blog tonight to hit the high points. Paul Balouche just spoke made us RUN TO JESUS! And OMG CHRIS TOMLIN!! THAT MAN ROCKS!!! He's like my new big brother. I sat in a writing session with him that was amazing. He talked about how he wrote all of his songs and where he found the inspiration. He wrote songs like "How Great Is Our God", "God of this City", and My favorite song right now "Our God"! He wrote many many songs that we sing in the body of Christ these days. Oh YEA "Indescribable", "We Cry Holy", "Holy Is The Lord" I should stop now before I have to pay royalties for all of the songs he has written.
Right now I'm out with the other artist and we're are waiting on the concert to start tonight FEATURING who???? Chris Tomlin!

I'm gonna go now. This may be the shortest Post I have written but I'm to CRUNK! I feel like I have died an went to Worship Leader Heaven. Just cue "How great is our God" and wheel me in..

Peace.
Brother J

A New Song - NWLC10

You know that some prayer, fasting and hardwork has went into planning a conference when after night one you can say..."well I can go home. It can't get no better than that". That's how Monday Night felt. So it was opening night and WORSHIP was phenomenal! I would guess tonight there were about 3,000 artist, worship leaders, songwriters, and musicians in attendance. I'm so glad to have been invited. My first time being invited was last year and this year I had another opportunity to come..

So yea, we're here at the Church of the Resurrection in Leawood, Ks. Leawood is "bourgeois", or how do we pronounce it? "Booggie" part of town. No walmart for MILES!!! Lol I needed an iron bad.. I had to go to another city.. so you get my drift. Here's a pic of the church



I snapped a few pictures. Some were too blurry but I'll share what I have.

I have to hip ya'll on to some awesome worship artist that had me crying as if The LORD was visible in front of me. When I tell you that they took me to the THRONE of MUHCY! (mercy) lol I mean it. And then the Pastor tonight, Pastor Steve Berger of Grace Chapel; Let me pause for a second and share this. Last year Pastor Berger was at the conference and two weeks later his son was killed in a car wreck. Tonight he shared his story and cried every time he brought it up. You can tell that he really loved his son like a father should.. I cried because I can't even begin to imagine the pain.. and his son was about to go to college that fall. Pastor Berger's wife is here this year also.. I mean he's a powerful man of God but he shared about how some stuff can really rock you however his message for tonight was A New Song Birth Out Of Pain And Suffering. WOW! He took us to Psalms 40 and wiped us out!! I can't share it all right now but a few points he made were how the tough times we experience allow us to be conformed into the image of Jesus. One thing that stuck out was how he talked about how we say "I want to be like Christ" well don't be surprised when you get a glimpse of what Christ had to go through. Christ was nailed to a cross and we can't stand to be lied on? He said Nothing resurrects until it dies! And he talked about us being in the pit. The dark, muddy, lonesome, dreadful pit. He paralleled the pit to his experience with his child's death as an example.. (I cried again) But he said get ready because more than likely there is a "pit stop" in all of our futures (not always death, just hard times) and he walked us through Psalm 40 on how to handle it.. Then his praise team came up there and tore that stage to pieces during an altar call. (we don't normally have altar calls at these type events but he explained how us as leaders of the body of Christ need prayer too especially when we have to constantly give out. You wouldn't believe how many hurting worship leaders were in the room.

I'm going to wrap it up by saying that this week will be a week of learning, opportunity, networking, resume' building, opportunity to sing and fellowship but most of all a week for healing. I know I have some scars and I expect to experience healing this week so I can return home better than I left and really pour out on this record I'm working on now.

So tonight was GREAT! We have a morning session tomorrow. (Tuesday) Other artist are arriving and it's awesome to meet them and mingle. Oh yea when I was walking in today an older guy asked was I a bass player and did I play with Israel Houghton.. :/ He said I look like a bass player. (Must have been the v-neck lol) but Israel Houghton? I took that as a sign. SPEAK LORD!
Two artist I enjoyed tonight and were really humble and anointed were:
#1 Phil Wickham!! AWESOME,, Vocals that gives you chills and vocal runs that make "you" tired..AND he's really cool!










#2 Keith&Kristyn Getty
from Ireland- LOVED their accent and Kristyn has the most purest voice I've ever heard. She sang I know at least 11 songs... But I could have listened to her all day. Keith (her husband) is the pianist and they have a full band. Pipes and violinist..the whole nine yard! one word: Amazing!!
Greatest sound I've heard in a while.. Sounded like heaven's music.(I have to get better pics of them) (Google them though)














Also some pics of the sanctuary before the crowd came in.. Thanks for reading. More post..everyday this week.. It's going to get better and better. (The pic of the seats is a shot before the stage was transformed to the first pic with the white backdrop-cool huh?).. Peace

NWLC.....Day before

Ok. So I always get amped up before participating in events like these. I am really expecting the miraculous. I mean imagine thousands of people coming from all over the world for "1" purpose and that's to WORSHIP God! Amazing huh?
Well this is the day before. I'm sitting in the the airport because I have a late flight. I don't board until 9:10pm to be exact. However it's amazing to see all of the different people to board one plane but we are all boarding for different reasons. (Nothing deep about that statement although it could preach..
I'm expecting so much from spending time in Kansas.. I get a chance to network with other artist and worship leaders and learn at the same time....Well... just wanted to do a written blog before I get on the plane. For the rest of the time I'm planning on committing to doing VLOGs. (video blogs for my slow saints) I want you to hear the excitement in my voice. Last year so many of my favorite artist shared the stage. I don't know everyone who's going to be this year yet. I haven't received my full itinerary but I'm STOKED that my bro ISRAEL HOUGHTON will be in the BUILDING>>. I'm going slap in when his foot hits the steps. That man drags me straight into the presence of God like NO ONE and I me NO-ONE else can..
Well I could continue to babble but I can't concentrate cause Granny beside me is talking extra loud on her bluetooth about NOTHING!

PEACE

BROJ :)

The Anointing...

I remember growing up we used to sing this song every Sunday, and I do mean EVERY Sunday, called "Anointing Fall On Me". Well, when I was younger I couldn't grasp the concept of what the anointing was and until today I don't claim to have the monopoly or full knowledge on it but I can say that I believe I received some sort of revelation on it to day. So I decided to share this blog. I KNOW that this year God is going to change my life and so in the process I decided to prepare everything and everyone around me for the occurrence. I know God will do that but He instructed me on somethings to do as well, I just did extra lol oops. (God's way is easier btw) Well.... I'm about to begin my extensive travels for the year and begin burning the midnight oil as I start working on my next project. But in doing all that I started to train people to do what I do and I thought I could train them to do it how I do it, I found out that I can't... Bummer for me. You see today I realized how gifted I am of GOD. Sometimes as singers I think we sometimes forget no matter how long we have been singing that we didn't give our gift to ourselves. Yes we can polish our skills and seek training methods to care for our gift.....BUT I know for me my gift came from God. I have never been "PROFESSIONALLY" vocally trained accept for singing in school choirs and church choirs. Neither of my parents are singers. My dad can hold a tune but doesn't sing regularly. With all those seeming to be odds, the gift of God and the ANOINTING has enabled me to "hang" with the best of them. Give me a moment and I'll sing for that moment. So... I'm sitting here trying to get people to do what I do and how I do it and it's impossible for me to train someone to be just like me because I'm ANOINTED to do what I do! I can't give "anointing" that comes from God. I can show you my practice techniques but I can't duplicate on my own what God gave to me. I mean... I didn't give it to myself. So yea I'm slow on catching things like that. I mean I know the cliche' that "every good and perfect gift comes from the Lord"(mostly used as a phrase pertaining to ugly babies lol J/k) but when you've been doing a certain thing for a period of time, like I explained above, you sort of lose perspective that you didn't gift yourself. And that's anybody. (Even the deepies) GOD has gifted us all and has entrusted us to grow and cultivate our gift but when it all boils down it is HIM that gave us our gift, it is HIM that gives us the grace to grow in our gift and HIM that gives us the ANOINTING to function in our gift. I can say with HOLY RECOGNITION of God (Awesome church phrase huh? lol ) I can say that I am gifted from God and no one is anointed to do what I do. I can't teach nobody the anointing on my life and I sure can't duplicate it...guess there will only be one Brother J.. as we can see there will never be another MJ (Michael Jackson nor Jordan)
signed-
Brother J

PS. Some things take longer to fully grasp than others. Some of you reading this might be saying "I KNEW THAT " concerning the anointing. Well don't judge. PLEASE AND THANK YOU.. I'm getting deeper in HIS word and really listening to my DAD / PASTOR these days and I see that many in the body of Christ are deceived and confused. So we can FLOUNCE that word ANOINTING around but get your own revelation of the anointing on your life. I can transparently say that I'm still learning about mine..

Am I Humble?

I must be honest....I'm a people pleaser most times.. I'm getting better but I have a long way to go. It has always been so hurtful to me when I have heard someone say something about me who I thought "was for me"; Someone I looked up too or someone I held their opinion at a high standard. As I grow in God, 1st of all, and I walk through doors leading in the music industry the Holy Spirit has warned me not to take everyone's advice or opinion. That's why I have been studying the word more and gaining knowledge because alot of times, people who always tell you what "they" think are usually trying to keep you where "they are" so they won't be left behind.
At church daddy has been teaching about love and it's mind blowing! Can never learn enough about love. I have begin to confess daily that the compassion of Jesus flows through my heart and that doesn't disfranchise the fact that everybody that's with you can't make it where you're going. But since I'm about LOVE now this blog is not about bashing anyone.
But I had been dealing with a statement that had been said and tonight God released me of it during worship and I had to share. It wasn't nothing bad but it shook me cause it's one thing that I never want to be said about me and that is someone saying that I'm arrogant or conceited. I think those attitudes are disgusting and are totally opposite of God. I've been told since a child the old Proverbial verse that Pride goes before destruction and I have seen it happen to others. They didn't say I was arrogant they said something like I hope he stays humble or we need to make sure that he stays humble.
I have always had this false definition of humility. I have always been told I have an humble, easy going spirit. But I thought it was because I didn't have much. So statements like that, which was said about me, had me thinking, hmmm when I begin fulfilling my purpose would I no longer be humble because I 'have' more. It had bothered me for months but I never said nothing. And God saw me walking around with that and tonight he squeezed it out of me.
A few weeks ago he allowed a mentor to define humility.
Humility to the believer does not mean you are humble because you lack or your timid. Humility is confident in knowing who you are in CHRIST!

I know who I am and God is daily making me into who I am becoming. And as long as I know it's God I'll be humble.! That took at weight off of me when that was said. My mentor, whew, he's awesome.
But I still carried a little weight cause it bothered me because I have a weird way of thinking that everyone in my circle or who surrounds me is 'for me'. WRONG! I have learned, especially being a Pastor's Child, that you have to listen to the slick comments. Someone made one the other day about my dad. I didn't catch until they walked off LOL OHHH BUT GOD SAVED THAT PERSON! L.O.V.E. lol I still have some learning to do. (Forever learning) This blog is about my evolution. I have always been one to value the opinions of others but I learned also that the opinions of others only matter in their world. They don't have to matter in mine! WOW! (send your offerings to 6035 Fairfield Ave. lol)
But while I was rushing trying to get everyone in my circle to be FOR ME! I ignored God's voice alot of times. I had to repent tonight. I had given to many people control. I thought about them before I made a decision, thinking ooh will I still appear humble if I do this or that. I'm glad God stopped me because I was on the way to losing my identity. I would have become this puppet and would have ended up living an unfilled life, more than likely doing what they were doing. I love to celebrate others and sometimes get talked into walking in 'their' purpose instead of stepping into mine. I have missed alot of opportunities like that.
But with all that said. Tonight I went to 318LIVE and worship was phenomenal! The presence of God was heavy and evident! And God was speaking. Not so much through the people, He was speaking Himself and He told me something He had been trying to tell me and something I needed to hear...I am for you! AHHHHHHH
God told me He is for me! Then the words to Kari Jobe's song rang in my head..I Know that you are for me, I know that you are for me, I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness! I know that you have come now even if to write upon my heart. To remind me of who you are!

I have alot of issues and have alot of Growing to do. But God said the people are ok, don't hold grudges or get worked up but they don't define me, He does. And no matter what they say or think may happen (I still don't know why I gave them power to do that when thy don't know God's plans for my life..I don't know them all so how would they know LOL) But not matter what has or will happen, God is for me!

Be encouraged! Listen to what God is trying to tell you! And that is all

Bro.J

P.S. There are no grudges towards the pers0n who said that about me. I'm very forgiving but it's hard to forget. But the person moved. God has a way of freeing you. I love them the same

A Powerful Truth 1

God created us out of an act of Free Will. Nothing in the universe demanded, "Go Create." No hidden agenda or motive drove Him to do His work. He did not construct the cosmos to stroke His ego or meet an inner need, to become 'more' God or 'more' powerful. God is complete in and of Himself. He didn't have to ask permissin to produce-He didn't need it. And it wasn't necessary to requisition funding to carry out His act of creation: He already owns it all. He sought no advice on the height, depth, or breadth of His construction. He already knew what He wanted to do: He wanted to create us: His Best Creation

And you wander if anybody loves you? Pshhh

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Who Would have thought?

That was the title of Pastor Joel's (Lakewood, Houston) messge tonight
Service was amazing..Cindy Ratliff, Israel Houghton, Krystle Harper (my friend), and the entire gang rocked the stage in worship tonight..I almost fell so many times but then my neighbor would hit this loud, tone deaf key and bring me back to earth! Worship was heavenly.
The Holy Spirit has been ministering to me this entire tour! I got so much stuff to share that He had shared with me. If He let's me. He tells me when to share an not.
Pastor Joel taught that God has some "who would have thought" moments prepared in our future. I recieved that!
He taught when God gives you a promise who care what others think! (that's for you Jerome) He gave the promise to you not them. He also taught how to flow with God. Stop being the hero and walk in your calling and you'll experience a life so WoW you would have never expect!

They can say what they want about Pastor Joel and Lakewood. The anointing on that church is like no other church NOWHERE! To see people stand in tears to accept Christ always blows me a away when I go there. Because Joel doesn't preach a fussing, condemning or "calling people out" message and they respond desperately wanting a relationship with Christ!
Who would have thought huh?
People judge pastor Joel by calling his message to soft or not truth. Well the truth is Hundreds of Visitors, not members getting resaved, accept Jesus each week! And they follow up! Not just take names. Not many churches do that these days. (mine does) but it's a blessing. Going back in the morning.
The galeria experience today was great too. Went to a fashion show, did shopping, filled my belly, just gooooood. And some celebrities were in the house (galeria) not many I knew besides Chris Brown. Can't wait until I have some stable friends to come and experience my life journey with me. I call my band an singers forth now! My life journey is amazing and I want to share with those worthy.(said humbly) God I'm looking for the friendships you have created for me. Folks who like what I like and who are going where I'm going. Well I'm about to slaughter this wing stop. Enough for this post.

Sorry if you were looking for something deep! Maybe next time bahahahahaha
Broj
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Wisdom (shared with me)

So my spiritual sister in Christ dropped some heavy wisdom on me today! My GOD! In my family life, everything seems like it's going through the growing pains and transitions and some days hurt worse than others. We came to a conference here in Houston for the first family's and we all grabbed something different. My fear, yea I admit I had no faith for this one and God got me for that, was that nothing would change. Today Pastor Ireshea said that it migt not seem to change when we leave. And I have alot of desires. See God asked Solomon in the bible what he wanted and he said two things. I would have messed that up and asked for HUNDREDS of things lol. But she said, and I paraphrase, that if we go back and nothing changes, that's fine. Sometimes we expect people to do what only God can. My focus should be on my personal connection with God because my happiness is not tied to someone else, it is tied to God. I have to intercede, pray, and let God take it and then and only then He is held obligated to fix it. Because I love him and my heart is right towards Him.

I love when she said....If my heart is right towards God and my greatest desire is to please Him, then God is held accountable to bring me into the company of the people that are critical to my success.

I really plan on SERIOUSLY seeking God more. Through Prayer and Studying His word. And I'm not saying that because it sounds pretty but because she also said that when I seek God in return He won't lead me with an assumtpion. I have stepped out on my emotions and what I thought, so many times. But anything God wants me do He will make it crystal clear when we seek Him. God is a God of vision and plan. So I'm not going to make another move until I have the wisdom and assurance and then I won't have to wait for a human support to help me if I fall. Because Where God guides He will provide. So like my Pastor says all the time, I'm going to "Pray about everything and worry about nothing" because I have the faith that God's will, will be accomplished in my life. Thanks for reading. U R loved.

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Sitting in hotel lobby thinking..I discover daily that I'm so different and familiarity slices my wrist. (sorry so graphic) but seriously, I have moments when i consider running away to a desserted island. I do pray that this is just a phase because relationships can be harmed if this continues and I don't see marriage in the future because of this.
So what's running through my head? How should i act as a citizen, morals, beliefs, truths, compositions, lyrics, people, etc. I sometimes wonder is this what everyone else is thinking of also. I'm looking around this lobby and I think not! Everyone is having conversation while I sit here and I care not to join in. Just saying. Maybe I just need to process all my thoughts instead of trying to find a cure. I thought I could cure it if I began to date. I'm not surHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJHey sister! You were really heavy on my heart and I just want you to encourage you before you go off to college to really get a personal relationship with Jesus. We won't be at college with you and Satans devices are strong and if you don't have a personal relationship and try to go down there off of our personal relationship you won't last. Please hear my heart cause icare. I'm here to walk with you before you leave and even while you're away but Just known Jesus walks with you everywhere so please talk to him and let him be major on your life. Love you much! Your BroJ
you want to go where 'nobody' knows your name and they could care less that you came....

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GRACE LIKE A RIVER

So I was sitting here just thinking that God has ALOT of GRACE!
I know I use alot of it, but I look at others (not trying to judge) but just seeing that they are using alot of Grace too...SMH!

Tonight I wrote three songs for my project. I'm doing a Worship Project on "LOVE". Something that I don't know enough about but I'm learning more each day. I believe if everyone (especially believers) knew the extent that God really loves us all, then we would have more fear, reverence, and honor for the things of God especially His commandments.
Today I made a list of all the things I wanted the Holy Spirit to help me recover from in my life. I wrote that I need more compassion. At my church we are thoroughly taught, and not saying others aren't but you can always tell when some go to a church that is not receiving like you are or maybe they aren't listening because of some of the stuff they say. Here lately, Facebook and Twitter have been like totally grieving my spirit and I have limited my access. I could do more but I have decreased my usage.
One of the things that gets me the most is that we COMPROMISE!! We compromise the truth to fit a lie that we have convinced ourselves to think as truth. WE fail to realize that there is only one TRUTH and we had nothing to do with it and that's JESUS!!
I don't want to go into much detail cause it bothers me to think about some of the things that I read from some of my peers and leaders. And lesson learned you can't judge a book by the cover or the pictures inside. It's better not to judge at all but judge by the words. We all have a certain level of, let's say ummm..assumed behavior.. from those who are leading us and those who have authority. So I can leave it at that. We really need to make sure that we don't COMPROMISE! I asked God to give me His heart so that I can Have compassion But Compassion doesn't mean compromise. God never compromised. He's original. He didn't have to take somebody else bird and make it better. No HE made the bird period. But for some reason we feel it necessary to use our energy and creativity to try to remix something already formed with one intention to make it ...I guess good. Not saying the motives aren't good but hey why do we need a CHRISTIAN PEPPERMINT! There are already regular peppermints let's come up with something of our own! We have the Holy Spirit to guide us! WE CAN DO IT! We don't have to waste our energies to remixing nothing when God gives wisdom liberally to be original! God is original so should we be!
I'm just saying this is my conviction maybe it isn't others. That's why I'm praying for compassion so I can live with my conviction and be able to accept others.. I guess.. As you can see I'm still evolving and growing. This is just something that has been bugging me but it goes to show that we are in need of more and more grace. I'm one to admit. Just think if God gave up on us the minute we messed up! OOOH I would have been gone a long time ago..

That's all on that. I hope the project I'm working on becomes a blessing and reach many to see the importance of LOVE!. Like my daddy would say what the world needs is LOVE SWEET LOVE

I'm OUT

Peace and Favor
BROJ

Back 2 School

I started school again after 2 1/2 years! I also changed my major from Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations to Telecommunications with a concentration on Business of Music! So music industry I'll be There full swing in a few! I'm so excited about my future. School was actually exciting besides me not really knowing where my classes were. My online classes are cool also. I'll take pics Thursday of me at school to show.

I have already started some assignments early because I will be making straight A's (yes indeed)! I also began my new project today! Not my next cd but.....well I can't say because I still have some uncertain people in my circle and they may steal it..I'm almost finished moving the uneccessary out of my life but it gets hard towards the end :/

Oh I also have completed the 21 day fast from a habit that I had! I'm so happy for myself because I accomplished something notable. Today was truly a milestone in my life and I know there is more to come.
The only down point I had was that I had to many financial duties in my own life that I won't be able to send any money to Haiti this week. But I'm still glad that I was able to send some to my sponsored child in Sieere Leone! (love you victor)! His bday is coming up. Oh I'll post a pic of him also soon! I plan on celebrating his birthday here :) and then send him pictures of the celebration.
Well I should get some shut eye now. I'm teaching for our Wednesday service tomorrow. I have to get rest. Until next time..

Keep Growing,
BroJ


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Showtime

This won't be a long post but it's just been on my mind a couple of days that a lot of times we can get people to believe in us, follow our plan, an join our team is beside they have heard us talk more than they have seen us walk. (a lil Jesse Jackson Rhyming for yall) but seriously I had really taken note of some of my dreams and visions and it's ordinary for people not to get excited about it if they haven't seen it.
I'm not saying that this is right but it's true!

I've been praying for those affected by the earthquake in Haiti, although I can't go over, I can financially assist and God also made arrangements for me and my team to help in our own city. Today my team (Fusion) and my friend Cassie and her team (HuB ministries) held a cookout downtown at the Fairmont Apartments. It was so fun and so heart warming. We grilled hotdogs (I helped bar b q/first time doing it) and we gave out clothes. The people were confident in our actions because we weren't out talking to them about the love of Jesus but we actually was showing them and we served 100 Hot dogs. It was amazing!
So lesson I learned to day, don't spend more time talking about your plans but actually do something.
People will remember what you did even If they forget what you said...think about it and comment.

Friend of God,
BroJ


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