The Evolution Of Brother J

So...I'm in my hotel room in Houston, TX after spending the last 4 days here for the "DEEPER CONFERENCE" hosted by Israel Houghton and New Breed.
Right now I'm just a little bothered that I accidently turned in my homework and test late in one of my online classes. When I'm doing Kingdom work or traveling I forget alot of things. I guess that mean I lack balance.
They told us to journal our experience so that we would not forget and so that it would stick with us!
I was dealing with alot before coming here. Family issues, Work issues, and church issues.
I'm burnt. Most people, christians, aren't usually burnt by age and I'm only 22 and I've been doing ministry for most of those years. I got so tired until the point I began questioning my FAITH. My relationship with God and if I even had one. But when I tell you that everything I needed was addressed in the conference I'm telling you the truth. I'll save my past issues for a another blog but I want to do a recap of the entire conference and everything I God told me during the conference. So this will be a lengthy Blog...Here goes..
  I don't want anyone's eyes to get tired.

Night 1 Deeper Conference

Grace Church led us in to worship followed by New Breed..oh and this year we had assigned, pre-reserved seating. COOL!
Bishop Tudor Bismark taught on this night and gave us insight on the Tabernacle of Moses and the Ark of the covenant.
The theme for this night was GRATITUDE

He informed us that we are in the 11th Hour which is the Apostolic hour and that the size of churches were about to increase. That was encouraging because I can see in church's everywhere that they aren't filling like they used to. Even our church.

The overall tone of the conference was GIVING (not just money) Loving People and Serving. Every speaker all reminded us of the same thing that we don't have to worry about ourselves. God has our world in His hands. We should be concerned about others who are less fortunate than we are. God gave me a theme for my ministry a few months ago and i must admit that I brushed it to the side. But this conference caused it to resurface and God has given me another chance to pursue and present it. My vision and Ministry theme is SHOW LOVE, SHARE HOPE!.. Isn't that awesome???
Well I think so. See people are looking for Love and Hope.. and Christ met both of those needs for everyone He came in contact with and I want to do the same. Show the LOVE of God, and Share the Hope that I have in it!
There are alot of more details about this but I'm actually about to create a website/blog for my ministry. I'm super excited!
I met some wonderful friends that I really hope lead to more travel and ministering opportunties although I didn't come to the conference for that, during one of the speakers God told me that this is season He is taking me in is a season of New relationship and this will be a test for my discernment and I need a keen discernment when I officially get in to the industry.
Tuesday me and William Demps, Singer from Seattle, WA began our friendship. He's my new mentor. He is so wise and we talked like we knew each other for ever. I'll never forget when I first went to his myspace page God telling me that we'd be friends/brothers. Not sure if this is seasonal but I'm ready for what ever God does. I learned this week that God only want one thing from us and that's TRUST. and I have to admit, that even though I love God and have faith, I still lacked in the trust department being that trust is totally different from love and faith. I have to COMPLETELY trust God with my life. Why wouldn't I think that God knows what He is doing. He's GOD! Sometimes, I know I do, I give God too many human charactersitics. But God is not like us. His thoughts and ways are higher!
So I recommitted my trust in him and I asked Him to be patient with me. So let's see how this works.
I'm so happy to be connected to Israel Houghton. this year (2010) he actually celebrated 20 years of ministry and 10 years of new Breed. Alot of the previous New Breed Member joined him on stage..(where was Stacey Joseph) wait that's messy lol sorry.. anyways. He's now one of my fathers for wise counsil being that God promoted him from just another artist to being a well for artist. He layed hands on all of us and I'm believing God for the song writing, integrity, and ministering, and musical anointing that he has on his life is now on my life. Although we stayed in the conference ALL Day it was well worth it. Some prestigious people were there or sent videos to congratulate him. Dodie Osteen was there and Joyce Myers snet a video. It's amazing to see the lives he touched. You can tell he's humble and sincere because he cried about everything. His daughter (mariah, 13( started her own foundation- Bella's Blankets that Give blankets to the poor)) He was really proud and he has now launched his own foundation POWER OF ONE based on Matthew 25.

My favorite speaker for the conference was Bishop Michael Pitts.. WHOA He preached the house down.. One thing that he said that still disturbs me and probably will until it's fixed is that they determine how to build a prison based on the test scores of inner city 4th grade males who don't have fathers/ That's burning so with in me that My ministry will help to destroy that. also there are more people dying from water disease than we know because they lack clean water.. and he talked about how alot of church's have differenct out reach and ministry but lack prison ministry and it was outlined to have one in Matthew 25. So this week has rekindled my fire musically and ministry wise. and I'm ready to get to work. there's so much running through my mind that I can't get out at one time. So i'll stop and come back later. I have a feeling that this conference, like last year will stick with me and the different experiences that i'm about to face will bring me back to this burning point. I'm trusting God and I WILL hit my TARGET!

Strength is for service and not for status!
God Bless
J